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I was born in Saint Petersburg. The photography has began for me since that day, when somehow once after winter I’d come to my summer cottage and, while sorting old things, I’d thrown out all the bank from cookies with negatives of which my first album was made, and I’d thought, that all this would be never useful to me more, and how could I practise such a nonsense seriously. But summer came, and there was so much beauty around, and I would like to transmit all this so much, that I was going everywhere with Zenith of my father, till I have not prayed my parents to buy me Pentax MZ-5, the best mirror photocamera for that year, and my numerous albums and then exhibitions have begun from that day.
At first I was photographing only nature, not letting anybody come inside to my world, and only after I had a huge collection of sights of cities, animals and still-lifes, I have realized suddenly, that there was nothing more perfectly, than the face of a person, the body of a person, particulary, a naked woman’s body. And on one breath I have made my first project, of which I was proud really and which I would like to show to public - "Twelve months" - a big calendar, I dream to publish it. Then my first personal exhibition with the same name took place in the club "England" in Saint-Petersburg. And then other series began also: "Inexpressible", "Carmen Butta", "Somnolent Dance" and others.
Photography for me is that impression, which I can express, I don’t love static, stiffened forms - when I can show the wind, flight of leaflets, the air jump in the dance. The photography for me is, more likely, the music, that sounds for me behind each photo, by which I guess unmistakably, upon what music this photo was making; it’s the love and the dance, - it is not necessary to be a ballet dancer to transmit it, it is necessary to feel it, though I was looked as a ballet dancer since my childhood, and I answered joking: "Sure. I’m ballet dancer". The photography is emotions, as in films by Andrey Tarkovsky, when the pictures are opened due to music, which carries away in the childhood and we feel all the universe, -fortunately, for photography, as well as for painting and music, there is no languages, and it is fearfully pleasant for me to think, that my works could be seen by people, whom I have never seen.
Photography for me is a duty, when I do not feel good, when I don’t photograph for a long time, "I should" - to create periodically new works, should live, except for this life, somewhere else, when I make photos – I assist in them much more, than that person, who is creating them actually, though then I laugh off that I have nothing to do with them.
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Photography is also a way to prolong the life, a way to escape from extreme fugacity of life, his extreme speed, whether, vanity, I know too well, what is temporary and what is true, that is why I refuse sometimes even photosesions for money to have time to make my works. "Sometime, - think I, - they will bring to me much more money, maybe, glory", - though I would not prefer to be a well-known person: too much I like to dress up under an eighteen-year girl, to whom in transport people address on "you" - in red cap and in red boots, and to go to the nature somewhere by train, having told to nobody anything, taking under the rain pictures for my "future masterpieces" - as I frequently think. I think also, that if I should even pay extra for the opportunity to practise photography, I would pay all necessary without reproaches of conscience, - it’s too my favourite occupation and my favourite work that I can deal for 24 hours.
I like very much photos which carry harmony, because there is nothing more easier, than to create a photo in general, and there is nothing more complicated, than to create a good photo, - too strong on them, as on a carbon paper, the internal universe of a person, his mood. are reflected. I am affected with huge quantity of flavourless photos in albums, sold for the big money, I am affected with inspirituality of photos and spirit of destruction, which they carry, especially in albums with photos "nu", it’s the most fine theme, the most defenceless, the theme, the most complicated, the theme, the most loved by myself. And if you had a chance to find your favourite models, they will be for you the personification both summer, and spring and autumn, both all seasons, and all your moods. Through a naked body it is possible to express any emotion much more better, than even through a face of a person, God has created the person so ideal, that in his body there is more harmony, than in top of creation - colors and
butterflies. They speak, that an artist photographs itself in any model, therefore it’is necessary to concern especially carefully to what you wish for transmit through a genre "nu".
The last year I make pregnancy portraits and children’s portraits. These are themes so close to me, that this part of photos is titled “Waiting for sacrament”.
I hope that I have still a lot of photos ahead in different genres and technics, which I like to invent, I also hope that you will love my photos and they will cause kind feelings at you, and to look them more detail you can having contacted with me.
Natalia Poriadina
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